43 Days Left

Charles and I went to our second Pre-Marriage counseling today. It was pretty interesting. Sean first had us take a type of personality test and will give us the results and a write up in two weeks. We went over the role of the wife and the role of the husband in Marriage according to the Bible. Then he also challenged us to something. He challenged us to not live together until after the wedding. Now we have a few concerns with that because of the boys. We aren't sure what that would do to them emotionally. He said that at least, he would encourage us to not be physical with each other. As in sex, sleeping in the same bed, etc. He said that we would be starting our marriage off firm, and that God will bless us abundantly if we are able to do this. So, we are going to try to not have sex or sleep in the same bed until the wedding night. Tomorrow we are going to set up the queen bed we have downstairs, and that is where I will be sleeping for the most part. We might switch off and on because the boys are upstairs and it wouldn't be fair to Charles to have to get up with them every morning. But.. we are going to see how it goes.

Until next time.

45 days left!

A month and a half. Things are flying by fast. Getting ready to mail all the invitations in about a week. Charles' dad is going to buy all the stamps for us as a way to help out with the wedding. I sent him an email today letting him know the numbers for US stamps and Canadian stamps. I am going to start working on the boys' vests today. I am excited. I just have a few more finals to finish up and work on today first.

I also emailed my mom today letting her know exactly how I am feeling about her not being able to make it to the wedding, but planning on coming down a month later. It was kind of harsh, for me, and I hope that she doesn't feel too bad. I hate being mean to people, but I had to let her know how hurt I am.

I have been feeling really depressed and overwhelmed lately and I am not sure why I am depressed. I know why I would feel overwhelmed. I have three more finals and one more assignment to do by Sunday. Most need to be done by Friday. Then, I keep thinking of all the other things that I want to put together for the wedding. I need to remember, that I have plenty of time, and that I can ask for help if I need it. My problem is, that everything that needs to be done, I would have to write out a list for someone else to do it, like the song list, and it would take just as long for me to do it myself. Can you tell that I am a very independent person when it comes to things like this?

Anyway, off to work on school! Until the whole world hears!

Taxes

Whoo Hoo sometimes I like to be a single mom mainly because of all the tax breaks you get. Lots of money... will be here within two weeks, then I can get the rest of the wedding stuff. Sooooo excited!!!!

47 Days

Only 47 days until the wedding. Things are going pretty good.
I went up to the church to see what all they had in way of table cloths and what not. They have enough black and green table cloths that I can use for the tables. Then I can just do purple and blue table runners and it will look really pretty. They also have an arch that I can decorate up to look really nice. Now I just need to wait for my w2's so I can file my taxes. Then I can get everything else we need for the wedding.
I also need to finish up the song list and the picture show thing. But... things are going really well with the wedding. I am excited. It is getting so close.

53 Days

Time is flying fast. I am still working on getting skinny for my dress. I know that I can do it. I am not eating anything that I shouldn't and I am cutting down on my carbs. I have lost about 5 lbs in the last 2 weeks and about 1.5 inches in the waist. About 3 in the chest. Hopefully I will be able to get where I need to be by the end of February. My mother doesn't seem to have much confidence in me which is disappointing, but I know I can do it.

Not too long now!

I am looking at hair styles now, so I can maybe start trying them to see which one suits the best. Any opinions on the matter would be appreciated. Here are some pictures that I like.

60 Days - Two months.

Time just seems to be flying by. I think that I am good on schedules. At least for some things. I have gotten the majority of envelopes addressed, except for the few I don't have addresses for still. I have gotten the invitations printed out, (they are sooo cute), I have received the pictures that are going into the invitations, I have the response cards printed out, and the thank you poems printed out. I have most of my pictures scanned into the computer for the slide show. I still need to get the pictures of Charles, but I am sure Cassie can get those to me this weekend. Maybe I can go help her dig them out. I also need to finish putting the song list together and getting all the songs into a folder for easy access. Most of everything else is just waiting to order it. Or mailing invitations in a few weeks.

It is getting so close that all I want to do it focus on the wedding. I need to realize though that I still have school work to do. I am getting a little behind in it. I am going to try to get caught up today with school and housework.

Yooo Hoooo!

I got my wedding dress yesterday!! I am so excited. It is so pretty. It looks so much better in real life than it did on the internet. That is not always the case, so I am very glad that it worked out. Now I just need to make sure that I lose a little more weight to fit into it by the wedding. If not sooner to get Bridals done. It feels so much more real now that I have that and things are coming into play.

Yesterday we also finished up the guest list with Charles' parents. Still need a few more addresses, but got most of them. His dad also said that they would like to help with the financial end of things as well as anything else that we needed help with. We weren't going to ask them for help because neither set of my parents were going to help. So, it was a nice surprise when they offered. The number they said they could help with is about a quarter of the wedding costs. Thank you Chuck and Cheri!

Tonight I am starting on addressing invitations. Cassie is going to come over to help. We may do something else though, not sure. I feel like sewing too. So, we'll see how it goes.

Anyway, I am doing okay on my workouts. I don't feel like I am losing any weight, but I also haven't been measuring like I should. I may be burning fat and gaining muscle. I can see that I am starting to lose it in my face though. Which is really good. The more I lose the better I will feel. It is hard to do my workout on the weekends though because I don't like it when Charles watches me. It makes me feel self-conscious. He has been doing workouts his whole life, and so he knows how to do certain exercises. He also doesn't get light winded as easily as I do. He can tell that I am doing them though.

Anyway, need to get the house cleaned up for company this evening. Maybe try to get a little more school work done. Until next time.

65 Days

So, part of the condition of me not working is that I need to donate plasma twice a week. No big deal right? That is what I thought. I scheduled a new donor appointment for Monday the 4th. I showed up, but forgot to take my social security card. So I rescheduled for today. I show up for my appointment at 10:30, they asked me when I ate last, I said 8:15, they asked what, I said cereal, they said that I didn't eat close enough to the appointment and that I would have to come back. So, I go and return at 1:30. Then they tell me that I am still not able to donate. I brought my social security card that had my ex-married name and it didn't match my driver's license. So, now I have to bring in my social security card with Montgomery on it as well as a copy of my divorce papers saying that I can go back to my maiden name. It is so frustrating. So now I need to set up another appointment.

66 Days

Wow the time is flying by. So much going on and it seems like there is so little time.

I have gotten the invitations figured out, GT is just going to redraw the picture for the front. They are looking really good. The next couple of weeks I am going to start addressing them all and getting them put together so I can start mailing them out the beginning of February. At least the ones going up to Canada.

I finally was able to order my dress on the 1st. The website said that it was six week delivery. However, I got an email conformation yesterday that it was in the mail and should arrive by Saturday the 9th. I am so excited. I ordered it two sizes small to give me some motivation in continuing my workouts.

I ordered my shoes on the same day and they are already on the way as well. Yesterday I got an email conformation for the shoes as well.

Things with the wedding seem to be going really well. I still feel like I have a lot of things that need to happen and be done before I can stop stressing about it, but I know that it will all work out. Right now I am working on scanning in pictures for the slide show with my new printer. I figured it out a little bit yesterday and I am going to try to work on it more tomorrow.

I have loved being home with my kids. They are so much joy to be around, at least most of the time. I love being able to keep my house clean, and keep Charles happy with breakfast and homemade lunch for work.

Well, I am off to get the kitchen cleaned up and dinner started. Until next time!